How will I ever be able to trust again after this?

It’s all just so shitty. Second relationship/marriage...second time betrayed.

Why is fidelity and loyalty and respect so difficult for some people?

I’m only 7 weeks since DD1 and 2 weeks since DD2...and in A LOT of suffering and trauma over his betrayal...and my mind goes a million miles an hour with thoughts about everything from the betrayal, to my future, to everything in between.

One thing that made me feel comfortable and trusting of my stbx is that he was also betrayed...but who the eff knew he was a also sex addict?? Never saw that coming.

So during the times my mind is blowing up, I think about trusting again someday...HOW??? No way.

I know it’s pointless to think about this now...but I wanted to get this out...I think when the time comes that I’m ready to get back out there, I’ll only be able to be truly comfortable and semi-trusting of a guy who’s been through hell and back with betrayal. Someone who has felt the trauma and life-shattering agony that only betrayal can give. I can’t see myself trusting anyone else...it’s just too much, too risky.

My stbx was a master liar and deceiver...I trusted him fully and he lied SO many times TO MY FACE...IN MY EYES...I will never get past that...that someone could actually do something like that to me...it has really done (and I’m still processing it all) a huge number on my very being.

CHEATERS AND LIARS SUCK.

13 comments posted: Saturday, February 5th, 2022